Sunday, September 5th, 2010
Life in the Dordogne begins…
Here I am sitting in a little mobile home on a campsite in the Dordogne. It has been an interesting but eye-opening start as the journey from Southern Spain took off with a few false starts, as usual testing us all the way to our dreams…
We are waiting to move into The Domaine de Mazieras in an area of the world that I can only best describe as Home. I think we may have finally found the little corner of Europe where we feel like staying. Jasmin has started a small village school and the people so lovely she is taking the bus tomorrow morning as she feels totally safe. This is all very interesting as we used to say it will never be France, we don’t like France, totally writing off a place with vast areas we actually knew nothing about. Just shows how our minds and the stories we tell ourselves create our own reality.
Luckily, we saw a property programme about the Dordogne, started working the magic on it and found the Domaine, ran out of other options and so that we didn’t have to sweat through another summer in Andalucia, we left.
We start living in a part of the main house while we wait for another part of the Domaine to become free for long term rental. What an amazing place! I really feel like my powers of manifestation have truly surpassed themselves this time. Why is it though that although the Universe continues to support me at every turn I am now focused in on the small areas of life that are not quite complete? This has been really interesting to me and I’ve noticed a few things. When i’m not eating well, supporting my body and exercising and if I’ve been around people with unclear energy I quite quickly revert to this behaviour; totally oblivious of the wonders of my life and focusing on anything that is not complete or appears to be negative.
So, I’ve spent the last few days cleaning up both physically and energetically, and reminding myself of how incredible the journey has been thus far. Why, I asked myself if I have been supported this whole way would I not be now? Then, I came up with the answer. The Universe is waiting for me, so what is it that i’m not doing?
I think it is because I don’t believe fully in myself to be able to succeed doing what I feel in my heart I should be doing. It doesn’t matter if this thought is only a small lingering one, if you haven’t dealt with it, it remains and gets in the way. This negativity is bound up with old family ideas which don’t serve me anymore and so I’m going to do two things. Work on my own ideas here with the energy, excitement and belief that I usually work on other peoples’ projects and let go of old patterns of laziness and diet. I’ve been down this route before many a time and always jumped off the wagon at some point, but this time there’s too much at stake to do that.
So, here’s to Awareness, but here’s also to ACTION. As I learnt in NLP, we only make changes when the pain of carrying on in the same way is too great for us to bear. The pain of not fulfilling a life path when you’ve gone so far and are so close I think is too great, so here I go…